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So a little vent drawing I did. Got the idea from this -->[link] I would suggest going to see it. It's pretty awesome x3 Anyway Yeah. Okay. Look below for main meaning of this picture vvv

Okay, so when I was about 11 I began 'cutting'. Nothing serious but still. I didn't tell anyone except one best friend. I thought I could keep it under control and I would only do it once. At 13 I began using a razor but still had no Idea what I was doing. When fourteen came around, I had lost control over everything. Especially my cutting. When I was 14 I was suspended from school for having a razor and then was forced into therapy. Now that I am 15, I want nothing more than to go back and tell my past self to just not do it. That is why I don't want my friends, or anyone, who haven't really started the addictive, deep, every-day cutting, to not do it. I wish they understood it WILL become uncontrollable. I don't want anyone to ever go through what I did and still am going through. It took me four years to realize how bad my cutting had gotten. It took another year to stop doing it every day. Even though five months have passed since I last cut, it is always on my mind and the need to do it is hard ignore. If you're thinking of harming yourself in anyway or are then PLEASE get help and stop. It is hard. I won't lie. and at times you wont thinking you can but I swear to you it is possible.